Does it make any sense how I am laying here in my bed tonight, thinking of you, missing you, a tear falling for you. Why do I still love you, thought that this feeling was tucked deep within my heart. Why all of a sudden is this feeling emerging after I stifled the pain? Maybe, because I am feeling a sense of loneliness, how good does it feel when someone truly cares about you, and kisses you goodnight. That feeling is the best in the world. I see some of my friends with boyfriends, and I wonder what am I doing wrong why can't I have that. Is it because, my heart is still a bit hurt, and trying to heal? Does God really have a plan for me, and will I fall in love again? Some say it wasn't love, I was too young, but I know that I loved him, and now I have lost him forever. I can forgive but can never forget. I just pray that maybe someone special comes along and can understand who I am, and love me for me.

I can't believe that this is my last week of school, feels like the school year just started, even though, it's not really ending for me. Seeing that I will be taking five summer classes. It will be worth the time and effort so that graduation next May is possible. I am excited to spend the summer here, but a little nervous. I really miss home right now, but I know that I have to suck it up and just let everything fall in to place. Who knows what could happen here in Tampa!