What a rainy day, on top of it, its Sunday, and I miss home. I don't know if I really miss home, I feel that something is missing here. I have not had the best week, but I'm trying not to dwell on it, things could be a lot worse. Sure this is the hardest I've ever worked in school, and my grades don't reflect it,so frusterating to me. I have a sense of loneliness lately, that I keep trying to disect why I feel this way. I feel down. I know that I shouldn't, in the big scheme of things, life is pretty good. I wish that I wouldn't have to fake a smile right now to the world and instead lay down and cry. I refuse to let myself do that though. I found out yesterday that my grandparents are coming to stay with me for a week, starting May 7. I am so happy that they will be here its a sense of releif. I don't have a lot to say this week. I feel that all my feelings are tucked so deep within me that if I bring them out, things could only get worse.